m[E] my[s][E]lf n [i]

eveRyday it will Rain

2011-10-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

If you ever leave me baby,

Leave some morphine at my door

'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication

To realize what we used to have,

We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could save me

No matter how long my knees are on the floor

Oooh so keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'

Will keep you by my side

Will keep you from walkin' out the door.

Cause there'll be no sunlight

if I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

if I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds

my eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it will rain

I'll never be your mother's favorite

Your daddy can't even look me in the eye

Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing

Sayin there goes my little girl

walkin' with that troublesome guy

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand

Oooh but little darlin' watch me change their minds

Yea for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make you mine

Don't you say, goodbye

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make it right

bila haTi berbicara

2011-10-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

oh hati.

kuatkah hati ini andai takdir bukan seperti yg kita harapkan.

kuatkah semangat ini untuk teruskan hari-hari yang mendatang.

tabahkah diri ini mengharungi apa jua yaang mendatang.

redhakah diri ini dengan kehilangan.

bersediakah diri ini dengan apa jua yang tiba.

bolehkah diri ini terus menempuh hidup dengan sendiri.

bolehkah diri ini bangkit semula.

bolehkah diri ini meneruskan perjuangan seorang diri.

oh mimpi,

mampukah diri ini untuk bangun dari tidur.

mampukah diri ini untuk terus berjaga.

mampukah diri ini untuk melepaskan apa yang hadir dalam angan.

mampakah apa yg diimpi menjadi nyata

oh Tuhan.

Kau panjangkanlah jodoh kami.

Kau panjangkanlah pertemuan kami.

kau permudahkan lah urusan kami.

Kau panjangkanlah kehidupan kami.

Kau bantulah kami dalam menempuh segala dugaan mu.

moga hati ini terus tabah dengan apa yg tiba.

amin.

cOunt on mE

2011-07-05T22:08:00.000-07:00

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea

I'll sail the world to find you

If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see

I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will remind you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh, yeah, yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go, never say goodbye

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

You can count on me 'cause I can count on you

rindu

2011-04-17T23:51:00.001-07:00

sAyang...
sye da rindu aWak...
kalO bUleh saye nk dOk ipoh...
bOleh jumpe awAk haRi2...
saYer miSs awAk sgt2...

mulanya di sini

2011-04-17T06:35:00.000-07:00

Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Di antara kita berdua

Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan

Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai

Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu

Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlalu

Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini

Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku

tanpamu...

2011-04-16T06:19:00.001-07:00

sekian lame baru ader desire nk bka blog semule. da sebulan semenjak ali saket. aku maseh terase macam mimpi. but this is the fact that i need to face. syang aku pade dye maken bertambah. ak memg x sggup kehilangan dye. dye segale2 nyer bg aku. ak x pernah byngkan idop tnpa dye. selame nie aku kat shah alam. dye sentiase ader ngan aku. skrg nie aku kat kl keje. dye dok kat ipoh. aku terase kehilangan yg amat coz aku slalunye ngan dye. sume yang aku wat, sume dye ader dan sume benda kitorang try bersme2. aku rase cam patah kaki bile dye x de. sgt2 sedih. tp ap aku bole wat. nie sume to kebaikan dye. even dye da bnyak perubahan skrg. dye still perlu jg makn minum dye n diri dye. x boleh ad silap.

sayang, if u read this, believe that, i will love u more than before. aper yg jadi buat kn ni x sggup hilang yang. x sggup nk jaoh2 dr yang, n wat ni sedar betape kecil nya kite kat dunie nie. x mampu nk ubh aper yg da tertulis dalam buku kite. ni akn sentiase mendoakan yang supaya yang cepat sembuh cam dulu. ni percaye b akan sembuh cm dulu k.

Dan takkan berubah untuk selamanya cintaku padamu.....

n this is a song that i want to dedicate to u

Tanpamu – Sabhi Saddi & Helena

Tanpamu hidup jadi sunyi
Tanpamu ku seakan mati
Tanpamu bagai malam tanpa bintang

Tanpamu aku akan tersesat
Tanpamu tiada lagi hasrat
Tanpamu seakan jantungku berhenti
Kau yang terindah dalam hidup ini
Dan tak akan pernah berubah selamanya
Aku terlahir hanyalah untuk kamu
Jadi pelindung dirimu

Tanpamu nafasku terhenti
Keranamu aku ada disini
Tetap bersamaku selalu disampingku
Untuk selamanya

Kasih yakinlah kepada dirimu
Sayang dan cinta ku pun hanya untuk mu
Dan takkan berubah untuk selamanya
Cintaku padamu

********************************************

yang
kalo lea nk kawen ngan yang cepat2...
hahahahha...

oUting with b

2010-10-27T06:23:00.000-07:00

kEluAr n oUting berSAme B sYer

sesI mencUbe makNan di SeOuL gArden

agak yummy di cTu

namUn daginG nyer agAk liAt

oveRall very niCe

kAlo nk mencUbe siLe lah yeR sEdap

daGing + cendaWan

bnyak lg meNu, tp nie jer smpT disElit kn diCnie

daging yg tElah maSak yer unTuk d mAkan

tgh tunjUk skiLL meMasak 2. hahahha

mArah pasAl pe ntah

n this is mE

my Only OnE

2010-10-22T03:54:00.000-07:00

we had a fight last night

and i called him mad

makes me feel so sad

and I'm so ashamed

he's my only one

i give him all my love

even though my mom says no!

i just go on and on...

http://www.free-lyrics.org/Mocca/187475-My-Only-One.html

no one's gonna take him away from me..

everyday and every night

i just wanna hold him tight

and make sure that everything stays right

and everyday and every night

to dream of him is my delight and know that

he'll stay with me all the way

hAri ini

2010-10-08T05:40:00.000-07:00

1st mEet with qA. waH. seBanyaK 6 cOL telah diTab dengan jayE nye. 1 cOL berJaye mndapAt telUr ayam bErkat tiaDe interaCtion di upDate. x pew. yg pntg skrg gIgih mengejAr untuk menjd permanent. baEk. chaIyok2. my b will be busy dis weEk. b cutie ari seLase nie x nK dok sOrang2. sape nk teMan saYE. dis SundaY pown sayE cuti. tp B g pErlis lak. hUhUhu.

mEatBaLL

2010-10-07T06:08:00.000-07:00

berAt i da tRun baLik. frOm 50 to 42. sucCess ke faIlurE pOwn i x tAu. afTer fAsting mnth trus suSut menDadak kot. today jAlan2 kaT iKea. g mkn meAt baLL.

nie gmbaR2 yg sempaT di snAp

otw

sgT rAkus dgn meAtball diEr

yummy (yg blkg 2 lg yummy)

hAnyuT

2010-10-05T21:34:00.000-07:00

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu

Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu

Bagaimana ku nanti

Bila tiada mengganti

Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam

Hanya kau ku terbayang

Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka

Kamulah yang pertama

Tak mampu aku

Bayangkan

Hidup tanpa dirimu

1

2010-10-04T10:07:00.001-07:00

tOday

2010-09-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

huhu. sye sgt nerves. update interaction pown x dpt. dr kul 2 ak dpt jwb lbh kurg 20 je col. scary tp sonok. tp sume benda pon nk kena d bg taw. sian gile ak tgk mentor ak. but thanx ila for the learng session. tomorw will b another session on answering colls. hop i can learn as much as i can n update d interaction as faster as i can n manage to answer d col by myself. without any tnjuk ajr from ila. but still, im not satisfied with wat i did today. i have to be more confident. strong. think quicker n move quicker. i hope i can be permanent staff for d next 3 month. Ya Allah tolong lah hambamu ini.

mE

2010-07-24T21:18:00.000-07:00

ive started my working life as a trainee. for 42 days, i will learn lots of thing to prepare myself as a customer service agent. the traning is so fun. we r in the batch 10. we made our cheers, lots of presentation, lots of motivational class, role play, acting and others. but i lOve the english class the most. it was hard at first coz i thought that the learng period will be bored. but no. it is so fun, enjoying and fun. i have so much fun.

nEw piNk myVi...

2010-07-07T04:25:00.000-07:00

buhsAn

2010-07-04T05:03:00.000-07:00

baru 1 ari jd anak tunggal, sayEr da boSan.

how meh???

apEr2 je la...

2010-06-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

semaLm my famiLy n i went to n9 coz nk hntar my lil broTher kat kual pilah. it was a long joUrney yet enjoyablE. hohoho. pent weh. from ipoh to tOl senawang da amek masE 2 jam lebey. dR tol nk ke kuala pilah lak da sejm lebeh. dr pilah nk ke sErting lak sejam lebeh lg. hohoho. penAt duduk jer. sErting tue umah sedaRe. dok la jap kat ctu 1 mlm. nk djdikan cerite (bnyak citew nie)

1) smpai2 je di uitm kuala pilah, sepanjg pejalann masOk aDe bnyak stesyEn2 manusiA. kitaorg yg dalm kete ni konpius. nk benti ke nk jalan ke.

stesen 1 - amek kerts merh n putih. konon2 nye ade carta aliran cmner pendaftarn 2 berjaln la.

stesen 2 - dtnye oleh 2 org manusia (pm kot) yg mendaftar laki ke pompuan. so kitaoRg pon jwb la laki n diberi 1 kerts yg merupakan number bilik n kolej.

stesen 3 - kolej yg tertera. kn bwk turun brg shj. kerEta x boleh parking. kn parking nun jaOh d bwh. so my father yg bw kete g parking.

stesen 4 - kaunter kolej. berkepg2 krts soal selidik yg adek ak dpt. x fhm ak. bg ms orientasi stat kn seng. npe nk bg ms dftar lak.

stesen 5 - ke bilik n letk brg.

nk dijdkn ciTe kolej 2 cm apartment. 1 rumah 3 bilik. 1 bilik 2 org. loker punyE la kecik. shOwer 1. bilik air 2.

2) pg beforE antar adek ak 2, my fAther dPt la mesej dR sedarE ktoRg. dye bg taw pak Long ak da kn pOtg 2 kaki nyEr. seBb - diAbetis. so kitoRg pown g la merYap kat rawNg n tgk la pak lOng ak nie. ari tue br potg kaki knn takAt betis je. alih2 due2 kaki pown kn potOng smpai takat pehA.

cite number 3 nie yg plg pntg nie...

before g umah pak long aku tue. singghla kat umah kazen ak. kazen aku nie anak pak long aku. ank dye da masOk 7. ade kembr lg. anak 1st dye baye ak. hahhaha. kazen aku nie cEkgu cm my mOther la jg. jd berkOngsi2 la cite sal dak2 skolah. ckp la sal dak2 yg meRokok. mmg la teAp2 skolah, musti ader kes rokok. sal phone lg. kite agak tkot nk lggr peraturan sebb x nk mak bpk kn pggl dtg skolah.

cite 1 - ader sorg dak nie. bw phone g skolah. adat la kn kene rmpas ngan cekgu. kebetulan bapak nye lawyer lak. taw pe jd, bapak dak 2 g sman cekgu ngan skolah 2. 11 ribu beb. padahl da terg2 g skolah x lea bw phone. dye bidas cekgu n skolah 2 yg cekgu2 x de hak nk rmpas phone pon. n cekgu serta skolah itu kalh.

cite 2 - ader dak nie. isap rokok (kire bese la 2 kn). dulu2 bile kite kn tgkp. mak bapak kompem2 akan mrh ank nye. wlaopon taw ank nye isap rokok. skrg - bapak2 lea kate aper. "cekgu, saye taw ank saye merokok" saye x kisah pown.

cite 3 - dak sorg nie simpn rambut pnjg, so nm nye dipggl mase perhimpunn. esoK nye mak nye dtg la skolah. taw aper mak die ckp. dye slhkn cekgu pggl nm anak dye coz sebb kn ank die trauma. trauma kn pggl. trauma la konon.

x taw la nk slhkn sape. anak ke mak bapak ke.

question di sini...

kite nk jd parents yg cmner???

yELLowiSh

2010-05-30T07:48:00.000-07:00

suddenly i feel yellow is a pretty coLoR. LooK at thEse....

niCe

2010-05-30T01:49:00.000-07:00

When I was younger

I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind

He broke his own heart

And I watched

As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that

She would never let herself forget

And that was the day that I promised

I'd never sing of love

If it does not exist

But darling,

You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm

Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't

Let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving

In the morning, when you wake up

Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing

Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

sOng for my B

2010-05-22T23:00:00.000-07:00

Di kala ku kehilangan di dalam kegelapan,

Kau suluhkan sinar petunjuk,

Di kala ku kesedihan,

kau ukirkan senyuman,

Dengan penuh sabar memujuk,

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh.

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh,

Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku,

Andai hari esok dunia gelora,

Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu.

Di kala aku tak pasti,

Kau tampil dengan berani,

Membimbing agar lebih yakin,

Dan bila hidup penuh soalan,

Kau berikan jawapan,

Melengkap semua kekurangan...

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh,

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh,

Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku,

Andai hari esok dunia gelora,

Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu.

Tidak mungkin diri ini mampu,

Hidup tanpa doronganmu,

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh,

Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku,

Andai hari esok dunia gelora,

Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu.

oUr daY

2010-05-19T03:40:00.000-07:00

haPPy 7th anniversAry deAr

thanx for d wish

thanx for loving me

thanx for showing me d way

thanx for helping me

thanx for being wit me

thanx for everything

i loVe u so muCh deAr

'As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . .

I will always keep falling in love with you.'

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

confused

2010-05-17T10:19:00.000-07:00

jus watch nightmAres of elm street. hohoho. bes n saspen. seb bek da tgk trailer. huhuhu. da prepare la sket. hohoho. sgt bes. x sbr nk tgk wyg bnyak2 lg. hohohoho..

cant wait 2 watch prince of persia, lagenda budak setan, avatar - the last airbender + eclipse

++++++++++

im so confused now - wheRe is my b??

mOOdy...

2010-05-15T00:27:00.000-07:00

sOng of d dAy

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

fiNish olRedi...

2010-05-15T00:08:00.000-07:00

hari ini dgn rasmi nye tamt la hubungan akU bersaMe2 umah sewA ku di koNdOminium Kristal itu. lasT daY at umah n with geng umah. begitu juGe dgn faKulti terCinta.

lots of thIngs to b tOld but i coUldnt find any thaT suit with my fEElings rite nOw...

just wanna saY dat i wiLL miss u guys...

eSyah

yAna

yUn

diLLa

beDa

shilA

n aLL my clAssmaTes

suSah nk mEntion all pEople herE. thanks for d greaT timE, grEat fren and gReat memoRies.

hari lAst2 la si kEling 2 nk waT hal...

maaF yer bukan diskriiminasI tetApi realitI...

nsb bEk ad yanA ngan tuGik - laO aku sorg, mamPos aku..

mOOd - x sbr nk blk eYpoH nie...

huhuu

saCrifesZZsss

2010-03-29T05:26:00.000-07:00

What will you do?????

pEngorbann – what exactly that mean…

sye da bnyak beKorban but still I have to sAcrifice many things…

it mAkes me siCk!!!!

hoW should I sacrifice if it is sGT meLampaO…

if I don’t do it, it will ‘mAkAn’ my self juGE…

what shud I dO???

What shud I decide???

Shud I hElp them or shud I iGnoRe them…

diLUah mati eMak ditElan mati bApak…

i cAnt spit it oUt coz it wIlL hurt peOple aroUnd me...

if i do spit it, it wiLL cause lots of trOuble n iT will totAlly aFFect mE...

b - ur d oNly 1 dat i can trUly hOpe.. thanX foR beIng hEre wiTh me...

wat eva

2010-03-14T01:53:00.000-08:00

I’m so sick with someone. Its not like I hate her/him but actually I do care. Dun wanna mention about dat any further coz im totally sick with her/him. pErgi mamPos la. Its not all about u.

I frequently mention about ‘mampOs la’ which mean I don’t cAre but actually from deep down, im so afraid to admit dat i cAre.

dPli

2010-03-08T20:30:00.000-08:00

cuRRently im fiLLing foR dPli's onlinE. it maKes them hePy but im stiLL not so sUre.

it wOuld b easy if 'DPli' is not another kInd of sKull but stilL, it is a skul. n i hav to continue stuDying. huhuhuhuhu...

im so pEnaT of studyIng n dOing hOmewOrk...

oMG

2009-12-28T18:04:00.000-08:00

i have lots of things in my mind

but

wat do i have to say?????

uitm - bile nk bg jadual nih - im tired of waitin....

next sem - final semester

happy + scared + terrified + watever la

mALaslAH

2009-11-19T04:42:00.000-08:00

ooohhh

sy sgt mals nk wat praktikal

the end

i dunno y...

2009-10-12T06:16:00.000-07:00

i dunno y....

everytime when my aLEe sent me back after our long date, i will cry...

i dunno y coz tears will automatically burst out..

it feels like i wanna more time with him n i dun wanna go home...

yesterday,

after about a week, we finally met but it just a short meeting with him..

after i arrived at home, i started to cry..

i dunno y...

it feels like the time we spent together was not enough...

it breaks my heart....

aLEe said that it was a 'nikmat bercinta' but i dun agree..

if it is nikmat n why i have to cry??

mebe 'nikmat' means experience to him...

im want to be by his side all d time and never want to b apart from him...

but it cant b fulfilled rite now...

i have to experience dis for a longer time more...

pls let me have my strength to experience all dis stuff... dear God...

i MISS him so much....

really...

2009-10-01T17:20:00.000-07:00

aisyah n i involved in an accident last night...

while we were on our way to mr bob's class...

it was our's fault...

we were on motrbike n we bumped to a car which was gen-2...

my toe hurt n little bruises here n there...

aisyah safe but dunno her condition is good or not coz her tummy bumps towards the motorbike's head...

hope nothing matter...

d owner of gen2 car was safe, but x tahn bl die ngs ms cal g taw sape ntah yg die xciden...

i have to prepare mOney for dis situation to repair the gen-2 bumper(tp x rosak mn pown seno nye..

mOney MonEy moNey...

y u don like me hah....

tears will burst out non-stop...

2009-09-29T00:15:00.000-07:00

"What happens when he's your prince charming, but you're not his cinderella?"

to b loved....

2009-09-28T03:21:00.000-07:00

it is not wrong - giving ur heart to be loved..

u hav to take d chance n being loved by sum1..

but it is so wrong to giv ur heart to sum1 who is not deserve..

i can't bear to watch her heart break..

but wat can i say..

it is her decision...

raya time

2009-09-22T01:16:00.000-07:00

dis r some of d pictures dat ma sis took while we were at kAMpoNg

there were only our family + 3 of my kazen's families n my acu's family

so total up.. there were only 5 families who balEk for raya dis year...

nephew + niecesssss

Kairien + Qayyim + Kaisarah

tgga pown jd nk posiNG

pURple + reD + pURplE

ouRS

Qistina + Qalisha - ma niecesssss

dis is farisH - my nephew yg chumell n x nk kat org

the twilight saga

2009-09-09T22:36:00.003-07:00

finish reading all twilight saga books

from twilight+new moon+eclipse+breaking dawn

i lOv it

arGuEing

2009-09-09T19:28:00.000-07:00

kdg2 mls nk pk byk2 n argue ngan org tntng ap yg sepatOtnye n ape yg x..

im hepi wit dat so i dun wan to argue wit u...

sOri...

don wanna feel bad of saketkn ur heart...

so if i mls nk argue it does not mean im agree wit u...

jus mls nk pnjgkn cite...

2009-08-27T01:45:00.000-07:00

wat reallyyyy i need n want b4 i reach d age 0f 24

a car
already engaged to ma b
a job (i dun no wat kind of job dat i wan yet)
already plan where i gonna live after mrrying ma b...
my own casio's watch.. original
my own envy me gucci perfume...
my own rOOm...
later i'll update. i can only think 7 of them coz d weather making me numb....

2009-08-27T01:34:00.000-07:00

wanna rite sumtin but i donno wat to rite.

emm.

mebe, kebisuan itu 1 yg bagos tok ak skrg.

nothin much to say n rite bout my feelings dat alredy swollen n bleed.

jus wishes to my frens to live happily n gladly.....

alONe

2009-08-09T19:34:00.000-07:00

i always wanted to be alone but not being left alone
it is different
i do n i dont

dis is for b....

2009-08-06T23:21:00.000-07:00

dulu pernah aku bersumpah

slalu setia jika ku mencinta

masih melekat rasa itu

saat cintamu datang padaku

semua terwujud saat kau singgah

panasi cinta untuk setia merindu

kerinduan ...

tak akan menghilang

kan selalu kurasa

tak mampu ku menghindar

kau berikan apa yang ku pinta

kau mengikat ku dalam cinta

temaniku dalam setia

aku tak pernah mengharapkan

cinta lain datang membelaiku

aku dapat slalu bertahan

menahan cintamu di sukmaku

kehadiranmu basuh jiwaku

engkau sulutkan api cinta diriku

kerinduan ...

tak akan menghilang

kan selalu kurasa

tak mampu ku menghindar

kau berikan apa yang ku pinta

kau mengikat ku dalam cinta

temaniku dalam jalani hidup ini

eNgaGed n mArriEd

2009-07-15T00:40:00.000-07:00

while im in d bus going to mr bob's class, i met my senior/my fren's sis. her name is MurNi n i call him kak mUrni. n den i had a conversation with her. it is more bout my fren who is her sister, mazellane or i jus call her maz. long ago, alEE which is my only hOney had a crush with her. bese la... puppy lUrve... but i got him coz we r boRn to b together (alHamduLillah)... hahaha. but dat not d main point. the main point is she's getting engaged nex wek n gatting married after raye.. hahahah. cepat nye. i felt so jeles...

nak kawen gak...

huhuhu...

tp no wonder gak die kawen awal... her future husband is 29 years old n they had pland it since they were together at Sabah.

but her sister x kawen lg...

so langkah bendul la kan...

bes nye kapel ngan guys yg lg tue...

lea kawen da...

jgn marah taw

hehehe

im so lucky to hav u

lov u so much

laST mONday

2009-07-07T18:23:00.000-07:00

last monday i started a new semeste. i tot dat i have class with yana but it didnt happen. hahaha. we only have same class on wednesday. 4.30 to 7.30 - HR class with en hafiz. hopefully dis semester will b better than last semester yg cam mengong. i have to attend 8 classessssss dis semester. 2 classez will be on each day until thursday. bes la cm 2 kan. hahaha. x de la bz ngan clas sem nie cm sem lepas.

i really wannnaaa to kawen...
HELP mE...
i wanna finish my study as fast as i can....

lovely mowning today...
esyah wanna cook udang masak lemak for lunch...
yummyyyyy...

hahahaha

2009-07-02T06:31:00.000-07:00

jus watchin ghost season 1
n i so so so adore the character of nas-t in the series
i dunno y
but i like him so much (d character la)
hahahaha

hatinG sTuff

2009-07-02T01:41:00.000-07:00

i hate being ignore by people dat i care

MErinduKANmu

2009-07-02T01:35:00.000-07:00

Saat aku tertawa diatas semua

Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada

Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas

Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu

Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana

Dengarkanlah aku kumerindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya

Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada

Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

the ShoW

2009-07-02T00:55:00.000-07:00

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

Slow it down
make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
'cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
to be something I'm not

I'm a fool
out of love
'cuz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
in the sky
just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
and synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
they've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

oh oh
Just enjoy the show
oh oh

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

lASt daY

2009-06-30T01:07:00.000-07:00

today is my las day at magna. act i cant wait to finish my practical. n dis nite i will be meet my hOney. he came to shah alam and accompany me to ipoh. act he will do d drive part until we arrived at ipoh. i cant wait to meet him. i didnt meet him for about 4 weeks...

there were a lot things act happened at magna. some part i did not ejoy it but almost of it i enjoyed my self here. n d bes part while im working here. my fren(which is.....) met sum1. huahuahau. im happy for her. mebe dats d bes thing ever happen here. hehehe. im hoping dat they will be together n together n together. hahahah.

i want to meet him so much....

hope dat her will b hepi...

am I???

2009-06-28T20:52:00.000-07:00

am i d one who is always being left behind?
am i not d right person to be among them?
am i not d best thing ever exist in their life?
am i d one who always being ignore?
n am i d one who always being d person dat have no meaning for them?

oh God...
pls take away dis feelings...
i dun wanna be alone...
i need them...
but...
y do i feel dat they didnt need me at all...

i can flY

2009-06-26T21:08:00.000-07:00

"I Believe I Can Fly"

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

Hey, cause I believe in me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly

hOney

2009-06-25T02:04:00.000-07:00

i jus wanna tell dat im so appreciate dat i hav my hOney in my life...
even im always given u a headache but u don mind to be there for me...
thanx God for given me u as my guardian...
im always hope dat i cud b a better person for u...
love u deeply in my heArt....

sumEtimes it Worth....

2009-06-25T01:51:00.000-07:00

it takes years b4 my school's bestfren to realize dat im d one who is her real fren...
i dun mind waiting cuz it worth...
it is worTh... believe me...
today...
i realize dat besides her...
i hav also gud, best n great fren dat i meet here...
thanx guys for being such a nice frens to me..
even though sumtimes they leave me with some uncertainties...
n always get me so cccuuuuuurious...
but i love them...
thanx God for bringging me such an angels in my life...
hahahah...
im hoping dat im relly make d best thing in dis frenship...
n dis is worth 2...
im believing wat supposed i believed....

weDNesDAy

2009-06-24T00:53:00.000-07:00

today will be the last wednesday im here at magna
x sabar rs nye nk abiskn praktikal
hahahhaha

tOday

2009-06-22T19:49:00.000-07:00

ari nie saye wat flyerz dengan mggunakan adobe photoshop...
heheheh...
not easy...
but i made it...
huaahuaahu...
hope i can learn it more...ari nie...
kete 2 wat problem...
masuk gear 1 n 2 da start getar2...
myak hitam ok je....
bg taw la abg alfie..
jd die bw la member die tgk kte 2...
member die kt...
kete nie kn betolkan timing die...
tol ke ntah timing 2...
ak pown x taw seno nye...
pe2 pown...
member abg alfie 2 memg akan blaja engineering aotomatif...
so lea caye la kowt...
die kt x banyak pown gune nak timing nie...
x sampai 50 pown...
huhuhu...
baru je dpt duet smlm...
da kn blnje tok kete...
huhuhua....
ad lg 1...
die kate...
lao nak beli kete 2nd hand nye... kete 2 kene g bw kat puspakom lu...
cek...
baru lea beli tol2...
lesson for d day...

learning using adobe photoshop...
timing is important for car (eventhough i dunno how it will gonna effect d car)
nak beli kete 2nd hand... kene bw g puspakom for a checking...

cAKes

2009-06-17T00:22:00.000-07:00

wanna dis cake for my wedding

1 2 3 4

2009-06-16T01:07:00.000-07:00

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you

You make it easy

Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you

baby its fact

2009-06-14T23:43:00.000-07:00

Just in case they're wondering
They've got us pinned terribly
They don't believe our love is real
Cause they don't know how real love feels

You should know it's true
Just now, the part about my love for you
And how my heart's about burst
Into a thousand pieces
Oh it must be true
And They'll believe us too soon

Baby, it's fact
Our love is true
The way black is black
And blue is just blue
My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that
Baby, our love is true

They may say some awful things
But there's no point in listening
Your words are the only words
That I believe in afterwards.

You should know it's true
Just now, the part about my love for you
And how my heart's about burst
Into a thousand pieces
So it must be true
And they'll believe us too soon

fruStratinG but i unDerstand

2009-06-12T20:48:00.000-07:00

kenape n mengape... he can't do like i did to him... why cant he believe me as i do to him... omg... dis is a serios case... i thought i've done the best dis couple of years... i know he lOves me as much as i do... but d prOb is sAyang... u should truSt me... trust is the important matter of lOving... i know.. it is hard for you after your cousin's incidents... but im not one of the gUrls... n im not a girl who will give away my Love easily for some1 else... u r d only my dEar... pls understand me... it makes me so dissapointed...

but actually, i know d exactly reason y u do dat,
my deArest hOney...

kawEn

2009-06-12T02:23:00.000-07:00

sok nak g kenduri kawen abg salah sorang membe kelas.
hehehehehehehehehe.

so so so

2009-06-12T02:08:00.001-07:00

ari nie banyak sunggoh kerja daku...
mencarik-carik dokumen untuk mtat lagie...
sunggoh ak x berkenan...
da la nak 4 copy...
huhuhu...
penat carik...
da la bersepah-sepah mendenye...
huhuhu...
smpai petg gak la aku wat mende 2....
da la td kak ida mintak kje yg die suh wat ari 2...
ak da siap kn da...
xcept contract rate tok 3star...
sush nak dpt...
hotel cm x nka bg je...
nympah tol ak...
n ak sgt bengang sebenar nye...
mas lunch kt org mkn kat sup ani utara...
termasok lak pasl kapel...
huahuahua...
n ad la sebut pasal ak kapel ngan ali yg da amsok 6 taon...
huahauhau...
ari nie ak sgt2 banyak kje yg bohsan..

hOney BUrfdAy

2009-06-09T18:47:00.000-07:00

hari ini burfday bf saye...
hehehe...
smlm sye gayut ngan die n kgsi lots of things....
antranye adlah sebab2 kami berdua cam dipulaukan time skul dlu...
n how dat my old frn's heart was broken coz she had crush wit alEe....
actually. i did not know dat.
da ala ak slalu suh dye kem slm kat alee ms skul dlu..
cm ne la ak x lea nmapak. n she insist to transfer to another skul,..
sorry fren...
ak x kn kco kalao ak taw sume 2...
den ak berharap yg ko akan bertemu jodoh yg lebih baik daripada alee...
neway...
happy burfday sayang...
may our lOve will last...

YESTERday

2009-05-27T20:46:00.000-07:00

semalm hari yang agak selamt..
aku x wat ap2 prob tp ak silapwat kje yang abg razli bagie...
cmner la aku lea x wat double check...
huahuahua..
tp x pe la...
pas nie ap2 kje pown... mesti wat double check..
now, i think dat i dun very like dis place after d tragedy...
wat tragedy????
let me n myself only knows d truth...
heheehe...
yesterday was a great day - bole d kate kn cm 2 la...
yana, esyah n i went to jusco bukit klang and watched monsters vs aliens...
interesting movie n good...
dis movie made me laugh almost at all time...
d graphic was nice too...
n d story eventhough not so logic - cartoon pown kan - but i enjoy wathing d movie...

before dat we went to makan2 at sumwhere dat i dun even remember d place name eventhough i have been eaten there many times...
for d first time i dine there, the dish were not so nice n so sikit...
i was quiteb frustrated coz the tomyam there are lovely n i love d taste...
emmm, then we moved to big apple stall coz esyah is craving to eat their donUt...
as we arrived, there were no more dOnut in the big apple...
i guess, not her rezeki yet to eat big aple's dOnut...

but...
i enjoyed yesterday outing...
huahuahau....

not in d mud

2009-05-25T00:43:00.000-07:00

ari nie sume kje ak wat sume ppown x jadik...
gle x de mud..
kn marah la...
wat silap la...
angkat tepon pown ak lea wat silap...
ak x taw la npe ak ari nie...
mengong sket...
dala kn syarah lagie...
kn bising lagie...
emmrmmm.
ali pon marah2 ak...
emmmm...
suwey la ari nie...
huhuhu...

workINg oN sATurdAy

2009-05-22T18:45:00.000-07:00

hahaha...
ari nie ari sabtu...
guess wat???
im at magna...
today is working day but not formal la..
kje ak kat cnie ari nie...
surf tenet n men game...
hahaha..amek kesempatan la kt kan...
trokk kan.... x bagos senonye...
hehehehe...
petang nie nk wat part time ngan yana...
nta function pe...
hope x sush n x letih sgt coz esok pg nye still ad pt lagie...
huhuhu...
duet da x de...
tggl 50 je lam tgn...
sian kan...
huhuhu...
kje ad senonye nie.. tp mls nak wat....
emmm....
kat magna nie... abg razly pasg lagu yg ak x penah dgor... evergreen la knoon...
emm...
buhsan pown ad....

cOmbinatiOn of 2nd, 3rd n 4th day at magna bridge.....

2009-05-21T01:09:00.000-07:00

hahaha
diam x diam da 4 ari ak kat travel agency nie wat praktikal
ari ke2 agak bes la dr ari 1st...
x la buhsan sgt...
hehehe...
ak n esya tlah dsuruh menolg razli(merangkp pengurus projek mencadat sotong)...
so ak n esya pown disuruh la ikot untuk mengedarkn flyers...
so ak n esya nek la kte razli 2.
g la tesco n tesco xtra tok meletakkn flyerz di kerete owang.
best la gak ak x yah dok lam ofis 2...
hahahah...
mengambil peluang.
bl da letak2 2.... razli bawak la kt oran nek bukit kat sek 12 n tunjuk umah boss/uncle...
hehehhe...
besa kotw umahnye...
b4 masok ofis gak... ktorag lepak lu lam kte...
hahaha...
curik tulang...

d next day...
ak n esya dtugaskan ke TH Selbourne tok amek sebutharga...
mak aihhh...
tau x kat mane tue...
kat IB tueh...
sket punye jaOh...
abis minyak 1 bar...
baru nak egat nak jimat minyak...
x laea gak la nmpak nye...
kat 2 jam sengah kt orag kat lua...
huhuhu...
pnt pown ade...
sian esya drive, da la jam... da la jaOh..
petang 2 nyaris2 ak n esya dapat g KLIA...
bl trun jer nk g parking, tersermpak lak ngan uncle n auntie kat bwah..
auntie tgur razli npe bw ktorang n suh bwk alfie.
so melepas la ktorag nak g jln2 kat KLIA n nak tau prosedur menyambut orang kat sane...
sdeh kan...
huhu. x pe la...
ak lak disuruh menguruskan borang sebutharga 2.
wah kat kul 5 sgah, ak masih lagie mencari dokumen tok dimuatkan lam borang 2...
tau2 ari nie lak ak kn isi borang 2 gn typewriter...
nseb bek typewriter 2 lea delete..
cuak gak gn sebenarnye...
huhuhu...
tp alhamdulilah siap gak akhirnya...
arap-arap dpat la magna bridge tender 2...
hopefully....

1st day in magna bridge

2009-05-17T22:51:00.000-07:00

aku ngan sya gerak dari umah nek kete kul 8 sengah pagi. jalan n jalan ngan kete smapai la kul 8.50 kat magna bridge. x taw nak paking kat ne, so, kitorg pown paking la kat tepi jalan. ak da nampak yang ad papan tulih pasal zon tunda. tp wat dunno jerk. mebe x pe kowt (lam ati pk). hahaha...kn saman rupanya. hahahaha. amek ko. dari nak jimat duet trus kn saman. x pew la. nak wat cmner. da nsb kot. hehehe.

kat magna. aku kn fax surat td. hahaha. ak da lm gle x fax bende yg ak egt kn letak ketas terbalik. tekan la nombo 2. n den ak tggu. tggu punye tggu x lea gak nak fax. manyak kali kn redial. so ak pown plik la. tnye sya. sya pown g la kat tmpat fax 2. dye nak try n error la.. ak cam tkot sket. so ak tnye la eliiza - eliza nie dak praktikal gak dari ums, dye kate try nombor 2 tnpa no depan 06... so ak n esya pown try la... nka dijadikan cte. jadik la ka fax 2. hahahah... kisah aku dengan fax yang bijaksana.... heheheh...
pas nie d real boss nak jmp ktorag 2 orag... tkot pown ad. da la 1st meeting ak ngan director dye cam trok gak la... emm ak pown x taw la nk cakap. ak sndri pown x taw ak nak ap lam tourism nie... director 2 da buka kn otak ak bahwa ad cabang2 kecik lagi tourism nie. ak nk terang pown ak x taw nk tergkan cmne. tp ak taw la. hahaha. so.. pas nie aka nk try wat praktikal kat tmpt len selen travel agncy... hehehe...

ms jumpe d real boss... wah...ak kn masok lu bilik 2... sya g smayang. bos 2 tanye ak.. dari man... ak tnye die balk dari man 2 universiti ke mpat tggl.... dye tnaye ak balk lao org interview dari mn maksudnye ap...huhuhu... sush gak sebb ak x taw pe yg dye nak senonye... pe2 je la... dye bnayk ckpa. so dgr la. tp pe dye ckp 2 adlah ilmu. hehehe. huauahua.. aku n esya kena tolg abg razli (dye kje kat ctu) sal satu prjek nie candat sotong. g pulau kaps. suh carik orang. so kn wat la... ak x tepon2 lagi sal rates nie. hehehe... trok tol aku kan...

i hav.....

2009-05-12T05:40:00.000-07:00

i just have my hair cut...

hehehe...

lAgenda Budak SetAN

2009-05-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

lagenda budak sEtan...

penah bace x novel 2...

katerina n lagenda berakhir...

one of my fav novels since i was in skull. a lagenDary love betWen kAsyah n siDaratul Dursina(i think-da lm x review blk cte nie) or ayu.. sad love story n kasyah is a great lover too. cerita yg sgt2 bagos smpai terasE kite sndiri terAse ad kat lam cte 2. btw td surf teneT dapt taO diorg nak wat flem novel nie. wah!!!. da lm tAo tggu tok sebuah2 novel jd flem. tmbh2 fav novel. mest wajib tgk nye. diOrg kte farid kamil will be kasyah... emm... mebe a right decision. tp cam x bes jer.. novel tebal 2 nk dijadikan cerite sepanjg 2 hours... byak bende yg nak sumbt tuh... emmm. pe pown pade production yg nk wat cte 2, hope cte tUe digarap dengan bagOs n not a cincai2 work... semua pemint novel nie pasti nak cerite nie high dr expectation diorang.. dun let me or them down...

cant wait to watch d movie....

p/s

LaO watak Kasyah 2 wujud, saye rela korbankan ap sje to idop ngan dye... xcept my nyawE loRR... saye sgt admiRe dgen wtak Kasyah.. tp kompem mompem la watak 2 x wujud kat real wOrld kan... hehehe...

i lOve KasYah

sGt2 kesian ms yg ayu baru tergt diri dye siape ms dye tgh nazak nk lahirkn baby dye ngan kasyah...

so..... so.... so.....

2009-05-06T04:53:00.000-07:00

ari tue dgar cte dari yana. yana kate dak fud sebis kena transfer g puncak alam da. so umah akan tggal 5 orang jerk. lagie 5 akan masok dak2 bawu. gle x besh. emmm. nape la kn g sane. abeskan jer lagie 2 sem kan ke senang. da la pncka alam 2 jaoh. x membngon lagie. da kuwang geng lam umah. x bes gle. emm. pas satu2 bende jadik. pe la nsib. emm.

2009-05-04T05:19:00.000-07:00

da abis exam....

weeehoooooo....

saya sgat2 seronok setelah abis exam...

abis ari sabtu ari 2 n baru la ada mase nak wat entry pas da sampai kat umah nie..

hehehe...

pergi sudah sem 4...

sem 5 here i come...

x sabar rs nye nak abis blaja...

lag sket jer...

hehehe...

lalala

2009-04-11T06:27:00.000-07:00

mY immORtal

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave

Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light

Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me, me, me

bad luk or a fate

2009-04-07T21:47:00.000-07:00

mE being bAd luk agAin...
im so depressed...
how do im gonna get through...
lots oF prob r getTing intO me...
im so sad...
little emotiOnal prObably...
in few wEk im gonna be 21...
how do im gonna past dat day wit all of dis thing in my lIfe...
how im suppOsed to mange dis prob...
what ive to do to handle dis prob...

dear God...
give me strength to go through dis situAtiOn...

im so lOnely even thOugh i've my Frenz...

let me be d persOn i wanna be..
d person dat hav strength to handle her prob...
d pesOn dat sTrong to face d challenge...

i'm so depressed...
wish dat i hav strength to face d prob...

sOmebOdy hurtiNg mE!!!!

2009-04-04T09:38:00.000-07:00

there is a person

who i dont wanna tell her name

hurt me wit her words

it is a big deAl 4 me

i haVe feelings 2

same as her

...................................................................

mE in bAdlUck 4 sure.....

2009-03-29T20:05:00.000-07:00

again n again....
thought after d incident i'll got better life...
but nah...
it doesnt work...
after d days....
i got ma new phone n somehow i enjoyed...
now i'm broke...
my dearest laptop broke yesterday...
frustrated again...
it went black...
nothin 2 see of course...
mebe it wil cost around 300...
omg...

my dearest bf lectured me bout how im not so independent...
of coz la...

in skull...
ad mak jd cEkgu...
terpakse jd bek....
n then...
mak jd warden...
dok asram yg djg oleh mak..
blk umah pown mengadap muke mak...
my driving license...
i got for b2 n d...
n guess wat...
i never ride a motorcycle by myself again after the damn jpj test...
for d car...
my family is so manja ing me n never give me d opp 2 drive myself even they can be the guide me...
now...
my sister is more independent then her own elDER sis....
how im gonna describe dat...
she got car n can drive where ever she wants all by herself...
wat am i getting????
never mind....
its bout me not bout her...

in shah alam...

even i'm far away from my family dat can look after me...
but i got my bf...
so how do im gonna be independent....
these guys are so there for me...
i cant imagine my life without my bf...
i have him where ever i go....
school.... uni... holidays...
omg

loNEly

2009-03-15T21:17:00.000-07:00

lonely...
bl terase diabai...
oleh people who r close 2 u...

sye x kesah berkongsi no matter wat it is about...
but d probs r...
y they didnt bother my feelings and tell me first...
why they did not discuss wit me...
im d eldest...
they should know d fact...
im so disapointed n upset...
why????
am i not important more for them...
why n why???
d same Q keep entering my mind...

can dis feeling go away....

just pic!!!!!

2009-03-15T20:40:00.000-07:00

air pasang pagi surut pukul 5.... d surut time!!!!

way back to our room

our room at Panuba inn

d jetty to Panuba inn

searching for d lost treasure

the crystal clear sea

view from our room

us on d ferry

the picture of sunset in tioman

no tITle pleAzzz

2009-03-09T23:29:00.000-07:00

hari ini hari isnin,

dan bermulalah kisahku dengan kerja-kerjaku

hari selasa pula.

cikgu tambah kerja lagi

hari rabu turut sama,

sakitnya hati
i hate my homework very much

i feel like i’ve been use by the

im hope there’s no more work for me

cause im sick and tired of it

i hate my homework
hari khamis yg penuh tragisc

ikgu mahu semua kerja langsung terus ku keliru

bila jumaat tiba,

aku mulai gelisah

jantungku berdegup laju,

buntu jadinya

m[E] n my[s][E]lf

2009-03-09T22:48:00.001-07:00

kerunsingan melanda n saye x tahu nk wat pe...
asgmen melambak n saye x de mud lgsung nk wat...
sye nk blk umah but klu blk umah saye x tahu sye aman ke x...
sye nk tgk oth tp sy da bosn menatp laptop sye...
sye nak jaln2 sorang tp sy tkot...
sye nk g shoping tp duEt da abis...
sy x taW nk wat ap....
sy perlu selesaikn prob org len tp fikirn sye trut bermaslh....
sy memrlukan sesOrg tp sy x tahu siape yg sy perlU...
sy x tahu ap yg sye mhukan saat ini...

im hoping dat dis week will go faster...

pls giv me strengths to complet dis whole week...

jaLAn2

2009-03-09T22:31:00.000-07:00

intROduction

4 2 days n a nite...
i went to tIOMan isLand...

bodY

sebuah pulau yg terLetak di pAHang...
tp kn g smpai johoR nun nak nek ferry...
trip to mersing took bout 5 hours...
my god... so lame in d car...
we (there r 5 of us, me, aiSyah, yAna, adAm n lERoy) sewa d kancil...
all d way perg n blik, adam yg drive wloUpoN 3 org agdis yg duDok membesarkn boontoot d blkg ad lesen kte...
kesian kat adam...
kami smpai d mersing n nek feri...
nak nek feri kn tggu bout sejam...
lam feri dudook smpai 3 jam...
membesrkn boontoot lagie...

kami tggal di Panuba inN...
tmpt quite ok la...
tp air laOt dye sgt2 lw...
nk wat snorkellg or watever there...
tp g 1 ari je...
mn nk smpat kan...
huahuahua
fud... dun ever think bout it...
huahuahua...
maHal + x sedap....
sempat mndi mnda, makan, tgkap gmbar, interview org tok asgmen n tdo je....
blk ari sbtu, n pas 2 sggh umah yana... tdo arr 1 malm kat umah yana...
esoknye baru blk....
ari ahd la...
nsb bek isnn cutie...

concLussion

boontoot jd besar pas dok lam kte n feri lm sgt...
we manage to get all info dat we need 4 d asgmen...

2009-03-01T19:45:00.000-08:00

time nie ak masih keseOrangan (dalm dunie blog la)...
heheheh....
wluOpOwn yg demiKian...
ak masih hndak meNulis sesuaTOO...
semalam...
dngn rsminya...
ak n ali... which is my dearest bf...
get to shah aLAm by a train....
not actually s.a... but kL...
we took the train n departd at 1.00 p.m...
later we arrved at kL cEntRal at 4...
n took d u80 bus there....
pas da smpai jer s.a....
both of us decided...
we made a dEcision dat we neVer evER gonna take train agaIn...
d journey is quite fun but lm sgt la kakak nek train... nak kn nek bas lagie g s.a... renyah la...
bek nek bas... smpai trus sek 17...
hehehe...
hahaha...
but i do love having my 1st experience with my dearest bf....

kEtiKa iNi

2009-02-28T03:34:00.000-08:00

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

2009-02-28T00:52:00.000-08:00

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