Saturday, April 11, 2009

lalala


mY immORtal

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

bad luk or a fate

mE being bAd luk agAin...
im so depressed...
how do im gonna get through...
lots oF prob r getTing intO me...
im so sad...
little emotiOnal prObably...
in few wEk im gonna be 21...
how do im gonna past dat day wit all of dis thing in my lIfe...
how im suppOsed to mange dis prob...
what ive to do to handle dis prob...

dear God...
give me strength to go through dis situAtiOn...

im so lOnely even thOugh i've my Frenz...

let me be d persOn i wanna be..
d person dat hav strength to handle her prob...
d pesOn dat sTrong to face d challenge...

i'm so depressed...
wish dat i hav strength to face d prob...

Saturday, April 4, 2009

sOmebOdy hurtiNg mE!!!!

there is a person
who i dont wanna tell her name
hurt me wit her words
it is a big deAl 4 me
i haVe feelings 2
same as her
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Sunday, March 29, 2009

mE in bAdlUck 4 sure.....

again n again....
thought after d incident i'll got better life...
but nah...
it doesnt work...
after d days....
i got ma new phone n somehow i enjoyed...
now i'm broke...
my dearest laptop broke yesterday...
frustrated again...
it went black...
nothin 2 see of course...
mebe it wil cost around 300...
omg...

my dearest bf lectured me bout how im not so independent...
of coz la...

in skull...
ad mak jd cEkgu...
terpakse jd bek....
n then...
mak jd warden...
dok asram yg djg oleh mak..
blk umah pown mengadap muke mak...
my driving license...
i got for b2 n d...
n guess wat...
i never ride a motorcycle by myself again after the damn jpj test...
for d car...
my family is so manja ing me n never give me d opp 2 drive myself even they can be the guide me...
now...
my sister is more independent then her own elDER sis....
how im gonna describe dat...
she got car n can drive where ever she wants all by herself...
wat am i getting????
never mind....
its bout me not bout her...

in shah alam...

even i'm far away from my family dat can look after me...
but i got my bf...
so how do im gonna be independent....
these guys are so there for me...
i cant imagine my life without my bf...
i have him where ever i go....
school.... uni... holidays...
omg

Sunday, March 15, 2009

loNEly

lonely...
bl terase diabai...
oleh people who r close 2 u...

sye x kesah berkongsi no matter wat it is about...
but d probs r...
y they didnt bother my feelings and tell me first...
why they did not discuss wit me...
im d eldest...
they should know d fact...
im so disapointed n upset...
why????
am i not important more for them...
why n why???
d same Q keep entering my mind...

can dis feeling go away....

just pic!!!!!


air pasang pagi surut pukul 5.... d surut time!!!!


way back to our room


our room at Panuba inn


d jetty to Panuba inn


searching for d lost treasure


the crystal clear sea


view from our room


us on d ferry


the picture of sunset in tioman




Monday, March 9, 2009

no tITle pleAzzz

hari ini hari isnin,
dan bermulalah kisahku dengan kerja-kerjaku
hari selasa pula.
cikgu tambah kerja lagi
hari rabu turut sama,
sakitnya hati
i hate my homework very much
i feel like i’ve been use by the
im hope there’s no more work for me
cause im sick and tired of it
i hate my homework
hari khamis yg penuh tragisc
ikgu mahu semua kerja langsung terus ku keliru
bila jumaat tiba,
aku mulai gelisah
jantungku berdegup laju,
buntu jadinya